Thursday, September 9, 2010

Pregnant Without a Due Date

I wish I felt as cheery as she looks! Being pregnant without a due date is what our adoption feels like.
Yes, we're still adopting.
No, we have not traveled yet.
No, we have not heard anything yet.
No, she will not be Caucasian.
No, we do not have a travel date.
Yes, we're still here.

Those are some of the answers I've been giving out to those who are concerned/interested/love us. I know they mean well, and it is truly appreciated but I wish I didn't have to keep saying the same thing over because I wish we were in Africa right now, or better yet, home with our baby girl. I remember being 10 days overdue with Curtis, but I knew he'd come out eventually. With our adoption, there are so many unknowns - specifically in regards to dates. I don't know if this is wrong for feeling this way, but I think I really need to get away from everyone/everything for a few days. Maybe we'll go camping next week?!

I pray that God will forgive me for my lack of patience. I pray that He will forgive me for my bitterness, grumpiness, etc. I pray that I will put my trust in Him and His good timing. Forgive me Lord, for failing to do that over and over again.

"Whoever dwells in the shelter of the Most High will rest in the shadow of the Almighty. They say of the LORD, 'He is my refuge and my fortress, my God, in whom I trust'"
(Psalm 91:1-2 TNIV).


Heather said...

Thankfully, you already know that once you scoop her up in your arms, your whole "pregnancy" will seem a blur. Hang in there!

love, me

elsie hiebert said...

So hard for others to know what to say. We don't have a referal yet and I think most people that I know think we have just given up. Only a hand full of people ask about it and they are surprised to hear that we are still going for it. Pregnancy is a piece of cake compared to this.LOL.

Liesl said...

I have to agree with Elsie. I think most people have "forgotten" that we're still adopting. Ugh. I don't blame you for feeling like you want to get away either. I pray very soon you'll be snuggling your little girl in your arms.

Sharla said...

There is a song that really helped me get through out wait, especially near the end. It's called "While I'm Waiting". It truly helped me to have perspective and be so grateful. Even now, when I hear it and look at my Ethiopian children, I get teary-eyed.

I pray that you get word soon that your visa is here.